this week's agenda

monday :-
                1.school got no extra activity but was suppose to stayback with Chang Juan and Lavishya but failed!
                 2. tuition 3-5 *sigh
tuesday:-
               1. after school got  netball club meeting. gosh
               2. thinking of asking my mum to buy my puteri islam tudung.
               3. Vanilla Coklat on tv3 :D
               4. GLEE!

wednesday:-
                  1. not sure have koko or not
                   2. if no koko, tuisyen till 5.

thursday:-
              1. debate
              2. jog with sara

fridayy:-
            1.after school go tt till 5 .

saturday: Undefined (probably lazy day)
sunday: undefined (probably lazy day)

k done. i just wanna sort my activities LOL did it for myself. 

Not ready for school

terimalah pantun 2 kerat dari saya:

telefon berbunyi Ring  Ring Ring

omygod school is  so BORINGGGGGGG!

i mean friends are not boring. stuffs i have to do is boringgggg :(

lepas ni kena turun naik panggil cikgu,

uruskan buku suria, bagi attendance , jaga kelas, kebun angkat, 

TUITION!! huwarghhhhhhhhhhhhh mummyyy my schedule is crazzyyyyyyy :(

last week , x de sehari pun yg x stayback.

and ofcourse, im no robot, balik naklah spend time for leisure kan.

tengok tv is like a MUST with my fav tv series la , tv shows la.

and then buat hw tidur.

mana sempat study.

porbably thats the reason why cuti ni aku malas gile.

sbb nak balas dendam kat diri sendiri LOL

seriously. i need some empty slot after school. sehari pun jadi lah. 

gained weight coz dulu petang i use to cycle around 

sekarang?? scycle ape ke jadahnya balik2 terus tido!

_

 kay enough of ranting, 

im excited for tonight AJL

like my friend says . SETAHUN SEKALI KOT

*nyanyi lagu raya, setahun hanya sekali merayakan ada AJL di tv3*

kalau Yuna x menag mesti dia nyanyi

INI TIDAK ADIL TIDAK ADIL 

hahahahahah

:p

yang penting Najwa Latiff x menang, sebab bukan apa, dia ada banyak lagi peluang

untuk menang. skarang ni bagilah yg lebih dewasa dri dia menang!

and bila dia buat lagu yg meaningful sket barulah she can have my vote :)

klah nk gosok baju -.-

i hope this time it'll work.

rambut boleh tumbuh

"ibu tengok kawan ibu tu dia botak terus lepas dia habis buat chemotherapy dia"

"alah, x pe, rambut boleh tumbuh."

"lepas ni ibu x delah rebonding lagi kan.. x de rambut"

"alah, x pe rambut ibu kan cepat tumbuh. lagi pun ibu kan pakai tudung."

"ha'ah maksulung ngan opah pun cakap macam tu dekat ibu. hmmph kamu nak exam lah ibu nak 

sakit kan..."

aku senyum je..

tapi dalam hati aku rasa sebak sungguh.

dah banyak masalah mak aku kena lalui.

sekarang penyakit x guna ni pulak jadi beban.

dahlah aku ni pemalas.

kalaulah aku jadi dia, aku x tau lah.

bagi aku rambut tu mahkota perempuan.

so, kalau dah x de rambut mesti rasa sedih.

yelah 45 years hidup ada rambut elok

tiba2 x de rambut.

tapi ibu tetap cool.

aku pun tetap cool :)

Life goes on.

ada org lagi teruk...

at least we have each other.

where am i going with my life?

i seriously dont know.

i could probably end up single and forever alone.

gosh i really really am amazed at how some people can have so much confidence 

and act like they never cared about how they looked like.

thou in my eyes they look bad :p

they are just so confident. they carry themselves like they worth a million bucks.

but me? once im in a circle of friends, even if they r not pretty i can always see them looking better than me.

gosh im an insecure lil mess.

ive never told any1 bout this but i think one of my friends noticed this

but i am actually very very insecure. ive never felt good with what ive got.

maybe the only think that i can like about me is that i am very good with my words.

like very good. LOL . its like what came out of my mouth in any situation,

either bad or good would either make so much sense, or funny or it could just proove someone theyre wrong

i can even convince people that im confident and happy with the right words and a straight face. 

LOL. 

well thats like the only thing i think im good at.

TALKING. thats probably the reason why i never stop :) 

also, i never felt like anyone has ever been fair to me. 

Thank you

what is wrong with you?

or what is wrong with me?

why are u ignoring me?

all these questions keeps playing in my head.

im mad 

but then i realized im actually so sad.

my hearts aching.

u wont even want to look at my face.

i wont dare to start a cono coz im scared ill get hurt even more coz u will ignore me.

u treated agirl u know for less than a month better than me.

like so obvious u completely ignored me and told me to seat away

coz u want to listen stories from ur 'new friend' 

fine. Go on.

idk.

is it because i frankly told u i hate ur bf?

what am i suppose to do???

act like i fucking adore his ass when i dont?

come on im ur friend, i should be honest to you,

idk maybe im a lil bit too honest.

maybe it hurts ur feelings to hear me say 'I hate ur bf'

but this always happens, im like ready for it.

almost.

go on, if ur bf can make u happier, i say goodluck.

after this i will pretend like ive never existed in ur life.

im sorry if ive one to much but i didnt mean too.

maybe u forget, but it was just u and me a few years ago.

now that uve got new friends ure dumping me. im so sad.

go on hate me. 

it doesnt matter anymore. ill cry for a few day but ill continue with my life anyway.

i need to get over this. 

Its bothering me so much it took my peace. 

i felt so worthless that people alwyas do this to me. 

1st day of 2012

so 1st day of 2012, Japan had a 7.0 magnitude earthquake. thats just a lil but creepy dont u think so?
ok movin on bout me (its always bout me aint it :p )

-bangun je terus pergi kenduri (sebab bangun pun da tengah hari)

makan makan makan.

balik umah aunty, lepak kat situ saaampai petang. haha had some good time there.

malam, BBQ!(although aku makan je aku x tolong bakar pun)

story of the day: 

lepas makan lepak2, Nalia suruh aku bukak blog Mina, dia suruh aku tengok.

sbb dia terasa yg Mina dok cakap pasal dia.

erghh aku baca blog Mina tu, aku rasa macam aku paham je apa yg dia rasa, cuma mungkin x seteruk tulah

sebab aku bukan faham pun ape prob dia ngan mamat tu tapi aku dapat mengagak.

lepas tu aku bukak blog dia pulak. Kononya menyesal.

idk, kesian pun ada marah pun ada.

bila baca blog sarah aku rasa bersalah.

i never knew that her feelings for him is kinda deep :/

sorry kawan, kalau aku tau, aku xkan kenalkan depa berdua.

and Nalia pun kata dia just wannabe friends. 

i cant see this happening.

Im so stupid. i know nothing bout love.IM SO SORRY

although aku kesian kat kau sebab cara kau tulis blog kau tu macam sedih,

tapi, kenapa kau buat macam ni?

kalau kau dah x nak dia, kau patutnya set it straight once and for all. 

IT IS YOUR FAULT. and, maybe mine too. 

sorry to say.