im hungry :(

im hungry.
but i dont wanna eat coz im fat..
i need to stop eating.
my dinner for last night is?
3 pices of apples doughnut and 2 chicken wings and a set of kaya toast!!!!!!!!
ahhh!!!!!!
im punishing myself tonight. i cant eat more than a set of chocolate peanut toast. 
THATS IT.
only bread! not more than 1 set!
its STARVE OR FATASS!! 

God Bless Us.

im sad and i felt so fragile the moment my mum told me about how my neighbours had been backstabbing us.
why? im not gonna explain evrything. but just generally i'll say.
My mum and dad is divorced. my mum has a new boyfriend (i was sad at 1st coz no one should replace my dad but my mum is happy. so as a daughter, its good to see ur mum happy) . and my mum's bf, ex wife when to my neighborhood and ask from my neighbours about my mum, me and her bf. and those people tell her evrything that is wrong and unaccaptable about us. they say Ugly things about my mum which is NEVER TRUE. they say my mum is cheap and stuffs. seriously they dont know what happen. THEY DONT KNOW THE TRUTH. and we cant fight back coz that would make us be just like them. and i felt insulted. they hate us so much when its all LIES. i know my mum altough she makes me VERY VERY angry at her coz she is too much at times. but hey, she is the reason i am what i am today SHE IS MY MUM. 

**

Dear God, 

i know that evrything happend with reasons .

and me and my mum will get trough this and i know YOU will be with us

we will stand strong toegther and we know that we will never be alone.

we never forget that YOU are there to pay for their Cruelty and Insulting acts.

and i Hope YOU guide those sinners to YOUR lights.

Dear God

please help me lift the weight of my shoulders as i dont know how long i could bare This.

i am the victim of this cruelty and im only 13.

.Amin.

i could've cry all day long.
but i wont. im just gonna ignore what they say.
im gonna make them watch me being WAYY succesfull than them in the next 20 years
i promise.

***

i HATE HATE HATE when people gave up and just be emo and broken
about stupid things like they like their crushes 
and their crushes dont care about them.
WAKE UP.
there are people with bigger things in life.
LIFE is not just about BEING WITH PEOPLE U WANT TO BE WITH.
DONT SIMPLY TALK ABOUT HARDSHIPS.

***

even if there's thousand of reasons not to smile, i'll find the ONE LAST reason for me

to smile, coz smiles is contagious. u can make a person's day by smiling towards em. and its not hard.

p/s: to weng, im sorry that u have to bear with my mood-swings this few weeks.

i am really struggling to control those hatred and anger inside me. But its very hard for

me to keep it inside me. i just have to let it go. 

I KNOW THAT
 RAINBOWS ARE GONNA 

SHINE AT THE END OF OUR DAY. 

dont you worry :)

you are a great friend and i love you .

to nyitleng, im sorry too. im very stressed. I love you okay? 

and to ALL my closetest friends i never meant to let my anger on yall. im struggling. i hope u all understand me. but i still manage to make most of u laugh at times rite? ;). hees*

Dear God, close Friends and Family, You are the reason  why im still standing today. if i was thinking just  about myself, i would've been so broken.

***

tomorrow.

tomorrow got injections. my friend from RPS got it today

and she say the needles were VERY big.

im scared. i'll bring tissues, god knows, maybe i'll cry? *shivers*

bye all. godbless.

ugh!

internet connection is so slow now. DAMN.

Gossip Girl

if u are close enough to me u will know that i Love

Gossip girl

:)

and u must have known i Love Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass

well guess what?

THEY BROKE UP :(

Chuck and Blair both screwed up.

Both did big mistakes.

and and Blair was like,

 "we are not happy together"

and they cried.

and Blair insist to end it.

Chuck hearts shattered and he is back to his Cassanova acts.

:(

i almost cried =,(

i adore them like Hell.

im so depressed now =,(

cant wait for what happened next.

finger crossed, may they be back together again.

and UGH wtf. JENNY is a BITCH.

she makes Nate thinks serena is bad.

EFF u jenny.

eff u with an elephant trunk!

I WANT BLAIR AND CHUCK BACK!

i was enjoying life.

then all this happened.

be strong Hunny B.

i know both of u are meant to be.

p/s: i know i sounded like i lost my mind

i mean likeyall will  its only a drama. but now,

Gossip Girl is a LIFESTYLE.

B, dont cry =,(

hope it works :)

hey. so yeah. its true.
deactivated my FB acc.
im gonna ask weng to change the password for me soon :)
it wont be long.
and yeah. i know. its very very hard D;
but what to do?
i have to sacrifice A BIT la.
i'll still be onlining my MSN and will update my blog :)

open my bloggie and i flashes a broght smile =)

the song tsand by me.

reminds me of the Cute couple

gu jun pyo & Jan di

and kimbum's smile and Ji Ho cuteness :3

<3 <3

LOL arranged games for 1osprey Pj time.
just simply pick bola beracun.
suprisingly there are some girls who dunno how to play XD
they looked like they had so much fun.
sum1 hit the ball at siew may's face XD 
she cried then ok ad lar. 


ahhh~ during PJ was really fun after playing i hang around.

i was walking slowly singing and looking at the cloudy sky as it was about to rain AGAIN.

the wind was blowing breezy.

it was really windy.

so romantic <3

sang songs with asifa, diyana.
then b4 go home sang with Liyana and asifa and diyana,

lagu untukmu 

"Tiada bintang

Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah

Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri

Aku tetap begini

Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku

Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku"

hees :)

it was a high pitched song go look for it at youtube the song : LAGU UNTUKMU -Meet Uncle Hussain.

awesome i tell yall =)

lagu untuk sayang=)

Stand by me ♥ ♥

stand by me

look towards me

even though I don’t know love yet

stand by me

guard over me

because I am still clumsy at love

my feelings get better as I look at you

I find myself randomly singing

I even want to buy a single rose

The side of myself is so new

As my heart becomes closer to you

The world become more beautiful

If you feel my nervousness

Will you wait just a little bit?

Forever making love

Forever making you smile

Filled with your bright smile

Forever making love

Forever making you smile

Now hold my hands

Stand by me

Look towards me

Even though I don’t know love yet

Stand by me guard over me

Because I am still clumsy at love

The more I get to know you, my heart quivers

All I can do is smile

Shall I try to kiss you?

Will it get me a little closer to your heart?

Could this feeling be love

Im still shy

I haven’t even taken a single step to you

So please wait for my love

together making love

Forever making you smile

Filled with your bright smile

together making love
Forever making you smile 

I will slowly heat towards you step by step

Stand by me

Look at me

Somehow, I want to be closer to you

Stand by me

Guard over me

I want to seem a bit cooler to you

I don’t know at first

How to begin to love

I still don’t know my heart

But I love you 

my typical saturday.

woke up at 1 sumting today =P

ate breakfeast or shall i say lunch?

MENU: McD Frenchfries.

after i poured the sauce, i dip the first fries i reached.

an that was when i realized that my souce is shaped like a Heart shape. <3

See Weng, i told u. i came naturally.

coz i have lots of LOVE in me XD

Look:

 ok then i watch tv till like 3 oclock
and then i online,
after that, i went to tidy my closet coz my closet was like hit by tornado ad XD
and i found my old old dress...
awwwwhh~ it fits me perfectly now ;)

***

and then, i stopped halfway coz im tired and lazy =P

so i drew on my leg.

LOL.
and then i camwhored XD

 << it says, ijustwantfabulousity. =)

***

after that, i continue tidying and found other clothes.

and  camwhored =D

that black blouse! i've been looking for it for ages. glad that i found it back =D

phew, watching BOYS OVER FLOWER now.

i saw people in fb talking bout BOF

and i realized how i use to LOVE LOVE LOVE that show 

=)

an immideatly went looking for it online.

watching now =)

buhbye.

FRIDAY to be Loved =)

today was awesooommmeeeee =D

awwh~
had sooo much fun talking about this hot  guy i even does my spanish accents with hand signs "U R CUTE"
muahhaahhaha~ XD

awh~ me, weng, manying were laughing like seagulls at the bookshelves XD
i almost broke my windpipe for holding back laughters
COZ WE ARE IN THE LIBRARY
XD XD

got so high and i started saying words in NOT-A-PROPER-MANNER

HAHAHAHAH

i started to add W with evry letters i pronounce XD

like this.

i hwad swo mwuch fwun iwn scwool twoday.
fweel lwik nwot gwoing hwome ;)


hahaha yeah thats it.
so, i was still in my 'W MODE' when teacher came and i greet teacher liek this:

SWELAMAWT SWEJAHTEWA CWIKGUW.

and as expected,


1 Osprey giggled along as they follow what im trying to say XD


teacher flashes the 'o-they-are-NUTS-look'

and GEO! HAHAH
FUN COLLECTING STARS
=D
made CHEH JUAN laugh like a mad women XD


swience SIENCE!
was fun coz tacher gave us a lil work and the rest is PLAY time =D
LOL weng almost fell from her chair.
muahahhahahhahahaha~

'THATS WHAT U GET WHEN U TRY TO TOUCH MY 'TWINS'

muahahahahhaahahahahahaaha~

hees.
was competing who's signature better, 
and YEAH, i won =D
there it is =P

the T at the middle should be longer but i was rushing when i do it XD

so yeah =)

***

overall., nothing upsets me today

which is VERY WEIRD.

altough SHE scolded us, i macam x de feeling ape pun

HAPPY JER.

NO DRAMA. **Suprisingly**

i wont let her spoil my day.

Today was PuRrRRrfect =)

***

perfect way to end the day? 

i stare at the sky,

i realized that tonight,

the sky looks like as if they were ENCHANTED. 

the moon looks so bright and it was just breezy.

*

bye =)

how i wish that im alone now.

i wish im alone now.

she wont stop repeating it...

shouting.

to her, 

im a BAD DAUGHTER.

to her,

im a BURDEN.

to her,

i didnt bring any goodness in her life.

to her,

im always WRONG.

to her, 

i will NOT be able to be a good women when i grew up and have family.

to her,

i purposely slack..

to her,

IM NEVER BETTER.

well to me, 
she never try to understand me.
NOT EVEN TRYING to.
u never support me doing thing i Love the most
doing the thing that could bring me Happiness.

u only care about what u want me to be
u want me to be like those typical malay girl
who do ALL house chores.
u want me to be as decent an as pasif i could be.
u dont like my Loud ness and Boldness.

u just want me to be anything im not.

and i realize it. u r the reason why i rebel like a maniac. coz i tend to proove u r wrong and im right. that i could do things by my way.

go on. cut the internet.

i shall promise u one thing.

believe me.

I'll rebel like never before.

u noe why i always online online online?
coz im lonely once im at home.
coz i dont have an activity that is fun to do with you
have u ever try to talk bout things i like?
i could count it by my finger. i swear.

flew my sorrows away.

im trying hard not to cry.

she's in the house.

i will NEVER cry infront of her.

and the rebellions shall start now.

watch me.

and of course. school was fun. 

at least better than home. 

update for today?

update?

aih 

dunno worr

XD

just had some VERY CRAZY DAY
hugged 2 peeps
ELAINE and LIm =)
with my deskmate aka HONEY aka bobo aka Nyit Leng =D
and yeah Weng did contribute some awesome moments too.
and i create most of em
**ish perasan nye XD 


ish memang syok lar pun =D
ada orang yang giler macam aku all the time XD
tetapi i rindu weng jugak! ;)

but we cant have evrything rite?

WHEN ONE DOOR IS OPEN, ANOTHER ONE CLOSES

or is it,

WHEN ONE DOOR CLOSES, THE OTHER OPENS.

whatever it is, its still the same =)

**

i cant wait for end year exam to END

LOL!~

we havent even started but i was wishing for it to end XD

my kelab teacher says she MIGHT plan for another trip,
she guessed some REALLY boring places!
only very few caught my interest~

SUNWAY PYRAMID

and 

PENANG 

**coz i nver go Penang b4** :S

she gave a bunch of museum locations and ZOO TAIPING -.-

and i say this, 

which makes her kinda speechless =)

'CIKGU, INI KAN TRIP AKHIR TAHUN, TAK KAN NAK BUAT LAWATAN KE MUSEUM UNTUK BELAJAR SEJARAH ATAU GEO ATAU BIO?? INI KAN TAHUN TERAKHIR KAMI DI SESI PETANG, MESTI NAK SIMPAN KENANGAN MANIS, JADI KITE KENA PILIH AKTIVITI YANG 'FUN' DAN ENJOY!! KALAU PERGI MUSEUM, NAK BERSEMBANG PUN X BOLEH, DEKAT MUZIUM KAN KENA SENYAP JE... -.-

after i said that teacher stop suggesting stupid museums or any other colleges that she tought of.
like really? want us to have lawatan to college? ON THE END OF THE YEAR?

Hoping really hard that teacher will think of at least an OK vacation,
not to LUMUT or Taiping -.-
i wan it to be out of Perak, sumwher where ALL of us
can just be carefree and just shop and just have awesome times together.
coz when i was year 6 those teacher's were so mean. they dun wanna do school trip for us =(

I HATE EM FOR THAT.

wish me luck, im gonna die hard now

stacks of KH notes UNDONE =(

and to make it more TRAGIC,

it needs to be passed up 2morrow.

does really tick me of!~

like HELL

IM SOOO NOT GONNA BE A PLUMBER!

or a TUKANG JAHIT!

or a BOTANIST!

not even a slim chance of it!!!!!

why would i need to noe ALL the name of paip there is?

THIS IS ALL ABSURD.

yeah i;ve said it.

RIDICULOUS!!

herng!

BACK TO SCHOOL ;)

hye,
aabondoned bloggie for a day D;
or two?
i forget =P
actually i did sign in to blogger
BUT the DIVA post was soooooooooo NICE
i dont have the heart to make a new one.
IM PROUD OF IT coz i do it ALL BY MYSELF
**huhh**

haih.

i guess its KARMA =/

nvm. im not desprate AT ALL. 

i just felt that maybe i could correct my mistakes, but nope.

DONT U REGRET!

U walk away, 3 guys will be asking for my number kay?

Miss swaran changed our places!

it now sat with:::

**drum rolls**

**eletric guitar**

**bass drum beats**

**trumpet**

**cymbals**

KA!!!!!!!!! CHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

ELAINE NYIT LENG!!!!!!!!

=D

but then............

i 

am

separated

from 

my

ENDLESSLOVE

=(

WENGYUE

we now sat

FAR FAR AWAY

i cant really hear her laughters now..

brought BOBO

the bunny teddy for nyit leng bday prezzie

but she din come,

she get food poisoning ...

GET WELL SOON HUN <3 

YASMINEEEEEEEEEEEEE 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE

SOWEEEEEEEE

heehehhehehehe

ish! dammit!darn sleepy but cant sleep

got ton of maths work -.-

buhbye bloggies and blog readers =)

off to the battleground

INTAN vs MATHEMATICS

im CRAZY IN LOVE

Im Crazy In Love with this Diva who is Irreplaceable, its like she got a Halo around her.

she is just so beautiful, if she says she is not lucky, she'll be  a Beautiful liar . come to me and 

u'll nver be the Broken Hearted Girl. If I Were A Boy, i would've gone looking for you, and if u r a Single Lady, I would've Put A Ring On IT! but i just love you, as long as u r happy im happy =] 

. and oh god, Imma Survivor because of you, i learn how to be strong by ur songs! once, i dreamt that u Say U Love Me and i Put It In A  Love song .. but its just a Sweet Dream or a Beautiful Nightmare.. Argh!!! I just figgin Love u!. U Are My Roc hun <3 if i had a better phone, u are gonna be all over my Video Phone baby. U say u have such a big Ego, nvm baby, i'll throw my Ego for u. Just for you. and i do have Fever because of u. and B, dont be Scared Of Lonely coz im always here for you ;) and if i ever Smash Into You, i will never let you go.

and its true, u r flashing like a Satellite 

i love you hun! 

heesssss ;D

p/s: guess ur ownself who im talkin bout.

clue: the one in colour are song titles sung by HER <3

Beyoncé;Jay-Z - Crazy In Love

hottest video of all time babeh!

some girl just love to camwhore XD

RANDOM POST XD

idk what to blog about. 

so, i decided to put pics.

coz we all love to camwhore.... =P

those pics are never seen before. 

never put em in my fb XD

hees,  =)

XD

i like this pic... hahah. u can see the craziness XD

i think weng didnt realize i she took the photo. or what? LOL it looks funny!

u can see that farah (behind) always becomes weng's props to exagerate the pic XD

DO NOT CLICK ON IT. it will cause ur comp to burst!

this pic, im not gonna make it big coz there's reason why there is
the word OOOppps is at my but. LOL! actually u can see my panty line XD but not anymore, coz im a hell of a good editor! hahahahah.
and lol my ass looks sexayyy! XD

u see my editing  skills are awesome . LOL 

u see, how the motherly side of me.. awwwww .. hahahha~

SOMEONE believes i cut my hair when i show this pic tp her .lol