My safe place (escaping from reality): February 2011

Monday, February 28, 2011

28.2.11

today was so nice. but too tiring.
i go school stayed back till 4 , and sarah mum pick us at 5
arrive home at 6 slept for half an hour, eat go tuition back home at 10:30. and now bloging.
i need to online la my BIRTHDAY WERT? :)
but im not well today. fell down from the stairs and starting there my health sank.
but then i made the cutest origami EVER during interact a bird and a lantern, or cartoon face?. u know why its the cutest one? EVER?its because i made it.

but im still ok. coz its my BIrthday wert?? HAhHAA
mum wished me a minute b4 the 12 (according to my comp time)
then ppl on FB, then Sarah. then Kiew,
and then next day, Farah is the 1st to wish me at school.
followed by Sarah, and i THINK the 3rd is wengyue.
and the lists goes on.
CANT BELIVE some 2 HORNBILL girls sang HB song to me! :O.

THANKS GUYS :)

Cheh Juan is super shocked knowing its ma birthday? heh??

yasmine and her 'gift' she was hyper that time i guess. hhah CRAZY BABI

and of course,

WENGYUE who literally made me smile till the bottom of ma lungs.

LOVE IT ALL.

thanks a lot hun :)

others who wished me on Fb thnx for willing to spend a minute to wish me,

thanx a lot.

to EVRYONE today who wished me

and most importantly hwo remembered :)

Sunday, February 27, 2011

im not sorry to yall.

as i say im not sorry to yall for not updating ma blog :P
i mean like im the one who cant on9 why i need to apologize to u. the TM ppl should say sorry. not me.

aih i lost my maths book.
diediedie.

errrrrrrrrrrr
ackimexsmla
acmxhcn
masalabebe

byeeeeeeee

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

hello, im my teacher's favourite punching bag.

what do you think i am?

inhuman? i dont have feelings?

i dont know how to cry?

i dont know how to felt ashamed?

seems like im ur punching bag huh?

do you know how hard it is for me to fit in in this class packed with smart asses?

oh yea, i have friends, but now i lost my self confidence coz u say im not suppose to be here, u asked me to go eagle dont you?

evry one knows that.

i felt soo low. i dont have the excitement to make friends in that class because they must have think im such an idiot. evryday u came in and 'teach' us maths and i will be there at the corner hoping u wont ask me to answer coz i probably get it wrong. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT FEELS? at that moment when im scared, i just feels like i wanna go home, curl up in my bed and NEVER return back. NEVER.

and thanks to you one of my friend doesnt want you to see me with her because she's scared u're going to hate her. see how u succed to ruin EVRYTHING.

first my, study,and then my self esteem, and then my dignity. now? ~~my so called friend.~~

kudos to you.

and when u scold me, i hold back tears, altough it did fall out without me realizing. and then u scolded me for crying. am i suppose to fake smiles then?

all the insulting that goes on and on makes u feel good right?

and when i get home, i have to fake smiles force laughters hold tears so that my family wont notice anything.

congrats to you again.

***
there were a number of FRIENDS who actually understands me.

and made me smile.

u guys meant a world to me.

because if not because of you people,

i dont see any reason for me to smile.

if it was just me, i will lock myself up from people's

and fake smiles infront of my family.

U guys were my one and only strength for now.

and you know who you are.