EMOTIONS OUT OF CONTROL. i know im the type who filters my feelings and tears most times but this time, its too painful to watch those faces that wants me to stay and my mum's look just shot me down into pieces.WOW. i couldnt control the anger and frustration.
after being all happy for managing to score 6A's , my happiness is crushed. BY SYSTEM.
the BEST answer they could give to me is THAT'S HOW THE SYSTEM WORK. well i say Go to hell with ur system. I gained those marks, i dont desreve these fucking bullshits. my friend failed a subject and got less A than me for her mid year and end year got to stay.
Im so torn apart coz im not gonna lie, frankly sayin it that i am very confident that i have a safe spot. have u ever have this feeling when u are already gripping to something and u already create a whole new plans, a whole new future and suddenly the slightest thing took it away from you. and u didnt even see it coming coz its not even ur fault it happened. HAVE YOU? if u havent, imma tell you now, that its the worst feeling in the world.
idk what had flew me and my mood back up? friends? mum? Both of em? GOD.
maybe all of them. but i swear i suddenly FORGETS about what happened. i started laughing just a few hours after the whole thing. i think just after an hour and a half. and started doing my normal routine like normal.
UGH. System's not gonna pull me down.
i will try my best.
if 3OSPREY is the obstacles u have to give to me,
i say Bring it on.
looking at it, the point actually goes to me, i still have people i love there. loads of em.
