Past Present Future

Today, when i meet her.. i just couldnt stop but flashes on memories..
last year... was a Blast.. altough u may see me looking mad but i will never fail to go trough the day 
without a hysterical laugh... 

They were the best..

and she look tired... i guess.. or maybe she just dont have anything to say.

it was kinda awkward... but im happy to see her..

she was a total jerk when i tried to help her back in those days.. 

so i leave her behind..

now, i totally moved on.. i think she's doing better? idk. I HOPE SO...

but i miss her thou... i wish we've spent more time just now. but hell, I was rushing..

had to let her walk alone.. hurmm...

Can you believe it.. we're almost in the middle of June ....
I use to complain how i felt school was effin slow in the begining of the year..
but now, it felt like it never really happened.
IDK.. did u get it? its like january was so long ago but u felt like time is too fast..
Its hard to explain... feelings are a hard thing to explain. ecspecially for me.
i find it easy to explain my toughts but not feelings. 
Im terrible at it..

2011 is nicer to me nowdays...
i guess Im happier now than i am a few months ago..
well, except my studies...
but looking into it,
i havent really had a strong memory that i've left behind.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.. how fast time flew now. 
the next thing i know taht i may wake up and be 15 year old!

wow. 15.. im considered a real teenager then.

SERIOUSLY... this is really shocking when i think of it all back..
and it kinda scary too...

Oh yeah..

the scariest part was the future...

will i go down back to osprey? 

i mean like thats a huge slap on the face..

plus i've been close to some of the girls in there..

but i miss my felllow osprey-ian so badly..

i mean no pressure at all in being the 2nd class..

But for all i know, my past has made me myself.

why do u think i was VERY DEFENSIVE?

i was the only child so people wants me to be evrything.

and i have to say No to what they want me to be all the time.

i have to defend them and tell what i want for myself.

and when i was standard 1 to 3 i was emotionally abused

by my 'FRIENDS'..

they called me hippopotamus.

as a kid, i felt really unfair and sad...

but i fought back by evry single bad things they say

and evry ugly names they've made for me.

and i've never changed since then...

im fat from i was a baby and i tried so many things

to get into shape..

BUT

And yeah.. who says the past aint important.

i believe we are made to be better by not repeating our mistakes from the past...

I am not the girl with the most friend when i was in standard 3,4,5

The Chineese girls looks at me like im some

Gettho Kid from Africa or sumtin

But now, im grateful by the amount of friend i have...

So yeah today will also be my past one day...

I hope I'll get it right ok? :)

Hye, Future...

:)

Birthdays...

i am admitting that i am nervous and paranoid when it comes to my birthday. well, almost depressed. u know why? Most of my friends, will be celebrating their birthday with friends, get tons of presents. Me? 0.09% of it happening. coz everytime my birthday, my friends won't even remember em. most of them dont even know. I use to get all excited when my birthday came but now, na'ah just felt sad and dull. 

when i was 2 years old, mummy threw a party with family members. but, i cant remember.

when i was 3 she threw a party too with family members. i cant remmeber it.

when i was 4 she threw a party.. with family members and i get loads of prezzie. (most of em were toys) god, i was so happy. when i look at the pics in my album, tears roll down seeing my mum kissing me. She Loves me. but now we were fighting on daily basis. seeing my dad feeding the birthday cake for me. we were happy as a family till then....

when i was 5 celebrated my birthday in my current house. i was dressed like princess in a white gown. a minnie mouse cake. oh how cute! i remember the time i kid burst a balloon. funny how i remember those small little things. :)

when i was 6, celebrate with closest family relatives only. the cakes getting smaller.

when i was 7, celebrated with my mum and dad on a trip tu gunung Lang. then celebrated with my cousins and aunts. 

when i was 8 the cake gets even smaller..

same goes when i was 9, 10, 11 and 12.

ALL was with family. that's why i Love em.

this year? celebrated with my far-away aunty. no cakes. just cupcakes. my mum bought 10 cupcakes when the people are like 20.coz it wasn't planned earlier. it was at my hometown. This is the 2nd time i celebrated without Nalia. hahah. then my aunt bought a cake for me once i reached ipoh... it was just the 10 of us. then when i goes to school. only 2 or 3 girls actually wishes me coz they remember my birthday... Not even afriend bought me a birthday present and that was when my mum says ' u always remember's people's birthday and buy presents for them, but they don't even remember yours'. i was very upset. i was quite true. infact it was Absouloutely correct.

i see other people celebrate birthday's in big parties or on a classy restraunt and i just watch their pictures and wish if only i was a rich kid. but i'm not. But u know what, that is the reason i will makesure i'll be rich when i grow up. im gonna own a bungalow people :) 

in the end of the day, big parties is not the ones that can make me happy, not even expensive prizes. As long as u remember's it, u wish me, or u write some sweet notes like my mum did on EVRY of my birthday, or u buy me cheap prizes. hahah :) that is all i care about. because that shows what am i to you, a friend or just another person u know from school .. :) till then..

Love Ins :)

Gossip Girl

if u are close enough to me u will know that i Love

Gossip girl

:)

and u must have known i Love Blair Waldorf and Chuck Bass

well guess what?

THEY BROKE UP :(

Chuck and Blair both screwed up.

Both did big mistakes.

and and Blair was like,

 "we are not happy together"

and they cried.

and Blair insist to end it.

Chuck hearts shattered and he is back to his Cassanova acts.

:(

i almost cried =,(

i adore them like Hell.

im so depressed now =,(

cant wait for what happened next.

finger crossed, may they be back together again.

and UGH wtf. JENNY is a BITCH.

she makes Nate thinks serena is bad.

EFF u jenny.

eff u with an elephant trunk!

I WANT BLAIR AND CHUCK BACK!

i was enjoying life.

then all this happened.

be strong Hunny B.

i know both of u are meant to be.

p/s: i know i sounded like i lost my mind

i mean likeyall will  its only a drama. but now,

Gossip Girl is a LIFESTYLE.

B, dont cry =,(

some girl just love to camwhore XD

RANDOM POST XD

idk what to blog about. 

so, i decided to put pics.

coz we all love to camwhore.... =P

those pics are never seen before. 

never put em in my fb XD

hees,  =)

XD

i like this pic... hahah. u can see the craziness XD

i think weng didnt realize i she took the photo. or what? LOL it looks funny!

u can see that farah (behind) always becomes weng's props to exagerate the pic XD

DO NOT CLICK ON IT. it will cause ur comp to burst!

this pic, im not gonna make it big coz there's reason why there is
the word OOOppps is at my but. LOL! actually u can see my panty line XD but not anymore, coz im a hell of a good editor! hahahahah.
and lol my ass looks sexayyy! XD

u see my editing  skills are awesome . LOL 

u see, how the motherly side of me.. awwwww .. hahahha~

SOMEONE believes i cut my hair when i show this pic tp her .lol

hate is a strong word but i really really dont like you.

friday 17/9/2010

it wasnt that bad at all.

i dislike u, and no! not an obsession. its just not it. coz its an obsession 
if i keep looking for ur faults and stuffs but in my case, u r like thrown away
FAR AWAY from my life.
there's more reasons to hate u than like you.
i saw me writing ur nickname (last times)
and i felt sooooo DISGUSTED 
god knows HOW DISGUSTED I FELT.

but i dont want to think much bout you, i had a wonderful day ahead.

im not gonna be emo for u, 

so not worth it.

LOL had some laughs during geo.

heesss. sn was okay..

overall,

it was a carefree day =)

i wish evryday is like today

TENSE FREE..
(=

MY playlist =D

OLA! XD

so yeah added NUMBER OF SONGsSSss

added:

cheryl cole : parachute

                 : fight for this love 

Intercept: gravity

Katy Perry: Teenage dream

Bruno Mars: Just the way you are

And uhm i forget la, go see urself =D

MUSIC IS THE MAGIC♥

woots~

hey =)
Finally, at the end of the day, awesomeness appeared =D
i know stuffs like that will happen in MY LIFE XD


my Friday starts with a very dull scenes and bla bla~

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>>>>SKIP TO THE FUN PART PLEASE>>>>

LOL people are  in the HARI RAYA spirit =D

mrs Lee says that there's a sing along,

and right after it, HAri raya song was played

=D

awww.. i'll miss this moments =3

hehehe......

and 

Mrs Lee ask us to sing along,

and hell yeah i did XD

but they were singing slowly

so En Zainal, took the mic and sing along!

evry1 started to be histerical

hahahhahaha

it heat things up =D

people started clapping, 

more and more people sang~

even the chineese girl beside me sang XD

and while me and my frens were just havin good times, 

Mrs Lee who was joining the crowd

came to me and shook my hand

she says:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA INTAN!

**with a very very friendly face**

i was shocked, 

but i still smiled and say 

THANK YEW THANK YEW!!

=P                       

I CANT WAIT TO CELEBRATE =D
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after recess, instead of wishing teachers

SELAMAT SEJAHTERA

we wish em

SELAMAT HARI RAYA CIKGU!!

XD

and during science, 

teacher let us play

and the class was like MAD

MAD i tell you

MAD!!

hahahahaahhahaha XD

hurm, i' ve been hypering, now im tired =P
im so sleepy.
i wanna sleep early today .
this whole week i cant sleep earlier than 2am
so yeah.
BUHBYE <3

what a day =)

 hye. i have fun =D
im tired laughing XD


today weng pms =.=
then she had period cramp. POOR WENG ><


i was just daydreaming of waking up at 12 on this saturday wen i realize i have band -.-
GIVE ME A BREAK..
haihhhh~

LOL i've gone crazy XD

smilin myself to sleep

@.@

hahahaah XD

;D

i cant sleep last night. i went bed 2:20 and until 3:20 i cant sleep.

i just have so many things to think :/

and woke up at 4:50 to eat

and then at 5:40 i was all ready to sleep BUT I CANT

WTH is wrong with me?

hummmpphhh. 

its 6:15 and i still CANT SLEEP

AND IM SOOOO BORED 

i've been lying on bed trying to sleep but my hear is stuffed with music XD

so, i noe just 1 person who has woke up that early morning,

Yasmine..

LOL. i text her and i fell asleep waiting for her to reply XD
hahahaha and i slept till 11 o'clock ...

KH was for the 1st time fun :P

coz im craping bout planning nyit leng's bday party 

was laughing till my stomach pain XD

coz teacher (likewise) go sembahyang for soo long =D

and yeah =D =D =D

tmorrow last day =D

then..

Cheh juan's bday

hari raya

nyit leng's bday

Farah open house 

hang outss

aih so many things ;D

yeh yeh yeh 

bye =)
=D

ice blend of emotions

i am going trough hard times in life now. but im so calmed bout it. 

why eh?

Never tought i was this strong.

i tought im gonna break down or sumthin'

yippie yaya!!!!!!

go shopping again!

2 days in a row shopping XD

heaven! (except for i cant buy a lot that i want  :S )

at least i got clothes now =P

i heard heartless in the radio**melts**
as im in love with it, i screamed (not that loud) and like give a BIGG reaction
my mum says 'OVER REACTING BETUL'
LOL
NO ONE CARES LAR =P
im in love with it.
IM OBSESSEDyea i admit it kay,

i felt guilty after being COLD towards u and held my rampage towards u.

i just want to let u suffer a bit la.... =P 

but things then went okay becoz of LWY =.= 

LOL im not mad anymore =P

hahahahahahhaahahaahah

i get sOOoo high 

me n kiew were talking bout tampons and pads, 

when i remembered a funny story bout tampons at a website called FML

so kiew asked me, what is fml

i tell her FML is FUCK MY LIFE

and she was like uhhm, okay. ( i dunno that she wants the link, she oso din tell me -.- )

and she went to www.fuckmylife.com sumtin sumtin website and 
it was a porn website!

HAHAHAHHAHA actually the website is diffrent

she misunderstood me ad,

she went to the wrong website

which in this case, porn website! XD

hahaahah she went there and saw:::::::
pictures of lesbians (verry dirty ones) XD

hahhahahhaahhahaha

KIEW oh KIEW!

why lar? hahahahahaha

u should've told me earler u want the URL.

LMFAO!!!!!!!!

XD
HAHAHAHAHAH XD

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i annoyed weng due to my highness state. she called me when the whole FML thing happened XD
ur bad XD
actually not annoy, she is the one talking non stop
like there's no tomorrow XD
heehehehe... but then weng dun get it wrong.

i like talking to you =)

and you.. 

see a side of u that i dunno =)

ok buhbye, its 2:10 am in the morning, i need to sleep and rest .

 i dun wanna fell asleep AGAIN

=)

goodbye Mood Swings hello smileys :)

today i was angry without an appropriate reason
i just feel like there's a sudden anger building inside of me
it became worst when i cant duty on the day i want!
sorry weng for being harsh to u earlier :S
i was really angry!

idk the apparent reason

there's toooo many thing im upset with...

maybe im too tired to fake a smile 2day ><

and then i 'lemah longlai' and fell at canteen when weng tolak me
what u expect? i puasa mar :P
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then after that, 

the anger decreases one rate per hour

and at last i cool down :)

and i get so hyper!!!

i even cat-walked XD

zha dou!!!

and had a blast!!!!!!

WITH :

KHAR MUN,

ELAINE,

MANYING,

SIEW MAY!

aduiii!!!! we played like a total asshole XD

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then, during science,
i asked 1 question that had been bugging osprey-ians for quite long
my ques to kamarul;
why the hell he always wear matching clothes with en zainal?
he just laughed and shook his head and laughed
and say    'mana ada!'
bwahahaha~
we think they're gay partners :S


OH YEAH! talking bout gay, sum1 thinks she wants to stop being gay
GOOD GIRL :)
keep it up!
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then today i on my fb and BAM!
33 notifications~

then go tesco and saw a baby!
that is soooooooo cute!!!!!!!!

and my opinion on saturday school: seriously? FTW!

i FKING miss band :(
**NEXT WEEK OSO I WONT COME GOT PPS  COURSE :(
and i have been opening blog for the past 3 hours but not yet update
listening to love the way u lie over and over again
DIDNT WATCH NARUTO :( im busy lar now to watch naruto :(

hey there,

exam sux

other things, was fantastic lar today :)

but its a HOT day -.-
had good laughters with 1 osp 
bout NARUTO 2day XD

and and 

i want to do just like what naruto does,

giving people strength

hopes

dreams

belive it! :D

and at the same time compete with my rivals

okeeeesss buhbye ~

**see weng, short post only! im not addicted to blogging!