last year... was a Blast.. altough u may see me looking mad but i will never fail to go trough the day
without a hysterical laugh...
They were the best..
and she look tired... i guess.. or maybe she just dont have anything to say.
it was kinda awkward... but im happy to see her..
she was a total jerk when i tried to help her back in those days..
so i leave her behind..
now, i totally moved on.. i think she's doing better? idk. I HOPE SO...
but i miss her thou... i wish we've spent more time just now. but hell, I was rushing..
had to let her walk alone.. hurmm...
Can you believe it.. we're almost in the middle of June ....
I use to complain how i felt school was effin slow in the begining of the year..
but now, it felt like it never really happened.
IDK.. did u get it? its like january was so long ago but u felt like time is too fast..
Its hard to explain... feelings are a hard thing to explain. ecspecially for me.
i find it easy to explain my toughts but not feelings.
Im terrible at it..
2011 is nicer to me nowdays...
i guess Im happier now than i am a few months ago..
well, except my studies...
but looking into it,
i havent really had a strong memory that i've left behind.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.. how fast time flew now.
the next thing i know taht i may wake up and be 15 year old!
SERIOUSLY... this is really shocking when i think of it all back..
and it kinda scary too...
Oh yeah..
the scariest part was the future...
will i go down back to osprey?
i mean like thats a huge slap on the face..
plus i've been close to some of the girls in there..
but i miss my felllow osprey-ian so badly..
i mean no pressure at all in being the 2nd class..
But for all i know, my past has made me myself.
why do u think i was VERY DEFENSIVE?
i was the only child so people wants me to be evrything.
and i have to say No to what they want me to be all the time.
i have to defend them and tell what i want for myself.
and when i was standard 1 to 3 i was emotionally abused
by my 'FRIENDS'..
they called me hippopotamus.
as a kid, i felt really unfair and sad...
but i fought back by evry single bad things they say
and evry ugly names they've made for me.
and i've never changed since then...
im fat from i was a baby and i tried so many things
to get into shape..
BUT
And yeah.. who says the past aint important.
i believe we are made to be better by not repeating our mistakes from the past...
I am not the girl with the most friend when i was in standard 3,4,5
The Chineese girls looks at me like im some
Gettho Kid from Africa or sumtin
But now, im grateful by the amount of friend i have...
So yeah today will also be my past one day...
I hope I'll get it right ok? :)
Hye, Future...
:)
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