Thursday, December 22, 2011

a beautiful song that contains so much pain.

when i hit play,
 it hit my heart.
nothing but pain i felt behind this beautiful melody.
it is like our story.
wish thats what u felt now. 
but its not, aint it?
i hate you but i miss you.
and i miss the people i love.
its been more than a year since the last time we can have a proper happy time together.

Now its all awkward. 
its so painful to compare what we have back then and now.
its clearly all ur fault.
I am sorry but u've hurt me too much that i cant trust u anymore.
my heart is still bleeding in pain, still wounded by yesterday's  story.

Do you love me or do you love to use me?
i am a normal kid.
i once to have it but i dont even know if its real coming from you
but now the fact that i obviously cant have it no matter what
Hurts me so deep that nobody knows.

im smiling, im laughing but theres a time when i just stopped smiling and laughing
and just cry and be broken and vulnerable.
but ill smile again.
because its not that i cant live without you
i can. but i just wish i dont have too.
but fact is, 
I can live With or Without you.
and i have too live Without u

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