God Bless Us.

im sad and i felt so fragile the moment my mum told me about how my neighbours had been backstabbing us.
why? im not gonna explain evrything. but just generally i'll say.
My mum and dad is divorced. my mum has a new boyfriend (i was sad at 1st coz no one should replace my dad but my mum is happy. so as a daughter, its good to see ur mum happy) . and my mum's bf, ex wife when to my neighborhood and ask from my neighbours about my mum, me and her bf. and those people tell her evrything that is wrong and unaccaptable about us. they say Ugly things about my mum which is NEVER TRUE. they say my mum is cheap and stuffs. seriously they dont know what happen. THEY DONT KNOW THE TRUTH. and we cant fight back coz that would make us be just like them. and i felt insulted. they hate us so much when its all LIES. i know my mum altough she makes me VERY VERY angry at her coz she is too much at times. but hey, she is the reason i am what i am today SHE IS MY MUM. 

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Dear God, 

i know that evrything happend with reasons .

and me and my mum will get trough this and i know YOU will be with us

we will stand strong toegther and we know that we will never be alone.

we never forget that YOU are there to pay for their Cruelty and Insulting acts.

and i Hope YOU guide those sinners to YOUR lights.

Dear God

please help me lift the weight of my shoulders as i dont know how long i could bare This.

i am the victim of this cruelty and im only 13.

.Amin.

i could've cry all day long.
but i wont. im just gonna ignore what they say.
im gonna make them watch me being WAYY succesfull than them in the next 20 years
i promise.

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i HATE HATE HATE when people gave up and just be emo and broken
about stupid things like they like their crushes 
and their crushes dont care about them.
WAKE UP.
there are people with bigger things in life.
LIFE is not just about BEING WITH PEOPLE U WANT TO BE WITH.
DONT SIMPLY TALK ABOUT HARDSHIPS.

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even if there's thousand of reasons not to smile, i'll find the ONE LAST reason for me

to smile, coz smiles is contagious. u can make a person's day by smiling towards em. and its not hard.

p/s: to weng, im sorry that u have to bear with my mood-swings this few weeks.

i am really struggling to control those hatred and anger inside me. But its very hard for

me to keep it inside me. i just have to let it go. 

I KNOW THAT
 RAINBOWS ARE GONNA 

SHINE AT THE END OF OUR DAY. 

dont you worry :)

you are a great friend and i love you .

to nyitleng, im sorry too. im very stressed. I love you okay? 

and to ALL my closetest friends i never meant to let my anger on yall. im struggling. i hope u all understand me. but i still manage to make most of u laugh at times rite? ;). hees*

Dear God, close Friends and Family, You are the reason  why im still standing today. if i was thinking just  about myself, i would've been so broken.

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tomorrow.

tomorrow got injections. my friend from RPS got it today

and she say the needles were VERY big.

im scared. i'll bring tissues, god knows, maybe i'll cry? *shivers*

bye all. godbless.