how i wish that im alone now.

i wish im alone now.

she wont stop repeating it...

shouting.

to her, 

im a BAD DAUGHTER.

to her,

im a BURDEN.

to her,

i didnt bring any goodness in her life.

to her,

im always WRONG.

to her, 

i will NOT be able to be a good women when i grew up and have family.

to her,

i purposely slack..

to her,

IM NEVER BETTER.

well to me, 
she never try to understand me.
NOT EVEN TRYING to.
u never support me doing thing i Love the most
doing the thing that could bring me Happiness.

u only care about what u want me to be
u want me to be like those typical malay girl
who do ALL house chores.
u want me to be as decent an as pasif i could be.
u dont like my Loud ness and Boldness.

u just want me to be anything im not.

and i realize it. u r the reason why i rebel like a maniac. coz i tend to proove u r wrong and im right. that i could do things by my way.

go on. cut the internet.

i shall promise u one thing.

believe me.

I'll rebel like never before.

u noe why i always online online online?
coz im lonely once im at home.
coz i dont have an activity that is fun to do with you
have u ever try to talk bout things i like?
i could count it by my finger. i swear.

flew my sorrows away.

im trying hard not to cry.

she's in the house.

i will NEVER cry infront of her.

and the rebellions shall start now.

watch me.

and of course. school was fun. 

at least better than home.