HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIEWWW

HAVE A BLAST! u and i are 14 so make the small kids jealous k? 

AWESOME :D

Dear Weng,

i miss you so much.
i miss singing wth you,
i miss ur laughter,
i miss u teasing me,
i miss making u go completely speechless,
i miss listening to ur small problem but u always treat it like its big. haha :')
i miss seeing u get emotion strikes. haha :')
i miss talking to you about evything
i miss introducing to you new songs,
i miss talking bad about the teachers with u
i miss critizing people's taste with you
i miss when we both turn on the perasan mood :'D
i miss Evrything.

i miss u so much.

Love, Ins

i can see the sun.

i can see the sun.
im so relieved all the madness and heartbreaks are ALMOST over.
Im too happy that it worth a little tears.
it made me realize that the rain had stopped during my birthday. i just felt better.
this is a blessing. thats the best birthday present EVER.
thank you. i dont know who to thank, but i wanted to thank you so badly.
Thanks Wengyue Thanks Kiew, Thanks Yinnie, Thanks Fatin, Thanks Siti, Thanks Sarah, Thanks Farah.
some of the names are quite new huh? 3 of em rite? i just wanna thank them all.

Thank You So Much.

u guys saw my struggle towards evrything this year. i finally felt Ok. altough i know some of the girls in Hornbill totally underestimate me, but other things are getting better. Im so grateful for that.

im in such good mood today.

i open my eyes and realize the cloud had move. 

evrything moves. and so now im moving on to the next chapter of my life. Im fourteen remember? 

Im Happy as for today.

i hope it remains like this altough there's a few things id like to change but, i know that my life is not like others. 

i will ALWAYS have Rains and thunders to deal with. and i hope its not anytime soon.

let me enjoy the heat from the sun for now <3

i miss this. but now it's here.

28.2.11

today was so nice. but too tiring.
i go school stayed back till 4 , and sarah mum pick us at 5
arrive home at 6 slept for half an hour, eat go tuition back home at 10:30. and now bloging.
i need to online la my BIRTHDAY WERT? :)
but im not well today. fell down from the stairs and starting there my health sank.
but then i made the cutest origami EVER during interact a bird and a lantern, or cartoon face?. u know why its the cutest one? EVER?its because i made it. 

but im still ok. coz its my BIrthday wert?? HAhHAA
mum wished me a minute b4 the 12 (according to my comp time)
then ppl on FB, then Sarah. then Kiew,
and then next day, Farah is the 1st to wish me at school.
followed by Sarah, and i THINK the 3rd is wengyue.
and the lists goes on.
CANT BELIVE some 2 HORNBILL girls sang HB song to me! :O.

THANKS GUYS :)

Cheh Juan is super shocked knowing its ma birthday? heh??

yasmine and her 'gift' she was hyper that time i guess. hhah CRAZY BABI

and of course,

 WENGYUE who literally made me smile till the bottom of ma lungs.

LOVE IT ALL.

thanks a lot hun :)

others who wished me on Fb thnx for willing to spend a minute to wish me,

thanx a lot.

to EVRYONE today who wished me

and most importantly hwo remembered :)

im not sorry to yall.

as i say im not sorry to yall for not updating ma blog :P
i mean like im the one who cant on9 why i need to apologize to u. the TM ppl should say sorry. not me.

aih i lost my maths book.
diediedie.

errrrrrrrrrrr
ackimexsmla
acmxhcn
masalabebe

byeeeeeeee

hello, im my teacher's favourite punching bag.

what do you think i am?

inhuman? i dont have feelings?

i dont know how to cry?

i dont know how to felt ashamed?

seems like im ur punching bag huh?

do you know how hard it is for me to fit in in this class packed with smart asses? 

oh yea, i have friends, but now i lost my self confidence coz u say im not suppose to be here, u asked me to go eagle dont you?

evry one knows that.

i felt soo low. i dont have the excitement to make friends in that class because they must have think im such an idiot. evryday u came in and 'teach' us maths and i will be there at the corner hoping u wont ask me to answer coz i probably get it wrong. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT FEELS? at that moment when im scared, i just feels like i wanna go home, curl up in my bed and NEVER return back. NEVER.

and thanks to you one of my friend doesnt want you to see me with her because she's scared u're going to hate her. see how u succed to ruin EVRYTHING.

first my, study,and then my self esteem, and then my dignity. now? my so called friend. 

kudos to you.

and when u scold me, i hold back tears, altough it did fall out without me realizing. and then u scolded me for crying. am i suppose to fake smiles then?

all the insulting that goes on and on makes u feel good right?

and when i get home, i have to fake smiles force laughters hold tears so that my family wont notice anything.

congrats to you again.

***
there were a number of FRIENDS who actually understands me.

and made me smile. 

u guys meant a world to me.

because if not because of you people,

i dont see any reason for me to smile.

if it was just me, i will lock myself up from people's 

and fake smiles infront of my family.

U guys were my one and only strength for now.

and you know who you are.

its the climb

i can almost see it. that dreams that im dreamin,but.

there's a voice inside my head says, u'll never reach it.

evry steps im takin, evry moves i make feels, Lost with No Directions.

my faith is shaking.

But i, i gotta keep trying gotta keep my head held high

coz, there's always gonna be another mountain,

im always gonna make it move.

always gonna be be an uphill battle,

sometimes im gonna have to loose

aint about how fast i get there,  aint about what's waitin on the other side,

ITS THE CLIMB.

keep on moving, keep climbing, keep your faith, keep your.. faith...

 its all about, its all about the climb..

KEEP YOUR FAITH..