hello, im my teacher's favourite punching bag.

what do you think i am?

inhuman? i dont have feelings?

i dont know how to cry?

i dont know how to felt ashamed?

seems like im ur punching bag huh?

do you know how hard it is for me to fit in in this class packed with smart asses? 

oh yea, i have friends, but now i lost my self confidence coz u say im not suppose to be here, u asked me to go eagle dont you?

evry one knows that.

i felt soo low. i dont have the excitement to make friends in that class because they must have think im such an idiot. evryday u came in and 'teach' us maths and i will be there at the corner hoping u wont ask me to answer coz i probably get it wrong. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT FEELS? at that moment when im scared, i just feels like i wanna go home, curl up in my bed and NEVER return back. NEVER.

and thanks to you one of my friend doesnt want you to see me with her because she's scared u're going to hate her. see how u succed to ruin EVRYTHING.

first my, study,and then my self esteem, and then my dignity. now? my so called friend. 

kudos to you.

and when u scold me, i hold back tears, altough it did fall out without me realizing. and then u scolded me for crying. am i suppose to fake smiles then?

all the insulting that goes on and on makes u feel good right?

and when i get home, i have to fake smiles force laughters hold tears so that my family wont notice anything.

congrats to you again.

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there were a number of FRIENDS who actually understands me.

and made me smile. 

u guys meant a world to me.

because if not because of you people,

i dont see any reason for me to smile.

if it was just me, i will lock myself up from people's 

and fake smiles infront of my family.

U guys were my one and only strength for now.

and you know who you are.