Only God Can Save me now.

Hye. exam its like in the next minute and i cant strain myself from onlining. But im going after i update this. or maybe an hour later .  i still have like a thousand chapters to go through! im failing already. ONLY GOD CAN SAVE ME NOW. Im worried and a FRIEND of mine, is acting up all weird and cold to me. sick of me eh?

to you my FRIEND,
i want to say that all this while if i ever critisize about ur lifestyle as in ur Boyfriend. im Sorry but i just speak my mind out and i care for you. I REALLY DO. nothing more than that. we're really good friend so i figure out its ok for me to share anything that i felt at the moment. coz if were BFF we should have no secrets. But, i think i was wrong. I dont know, my idea of having a bestfriend is someone that knows u well enough that they dont take ur criticism as a negative thing but be garteful coz shes there in every steps u make, u can take the criticism or leave it if u think shes wrong but NOT feel annoyed or what. and BFF should LISTEN to every stupid stories her firend have or at least try, but NOW, u arent listening. It Hurts me to see u changed so much. I see you treating somebody u just known for months nicer than me. I am trying hard to fix this but imma give up real soon, coz its hurting me. 
you are happier with em than me as ur companion and i care about you, so imma let this go.... plus you are always so cold around me whats the use of that? so i guess im just gonna let this go...


sekarang, aku dah translate emosi aku dalam kata2 aku sedar, yang aku rasa sakit lebih daripada apa yang aku fikirkan . sakit kepala boleh makan ubat, sakit hati? Tuhan je lah yang boleh tolong aku skarang ni.

Tuhan jee...