What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down'
Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
it wasn't my best days, and as i lie down watching this drama, and girl sang this.
the tears came gushing down.
by the 2nd chorus i had catch the lines.
this is my life soundtrack.
this is so true that i am so sad.
i realized. my life i s not as happy as it seems.
im not sad at school.
but the slightest thing can make me felt so small.
teachers scoldings can make me cry.
friends did not greet me first, i'll loose my mood.
I am insecure.
i have to admit this.
i can't tell more lies.
at school, if nothing has gone wrong,
i will be as happy as fuck.
the brightest smile among all.
but, when i reached home,
I'm all by myself.
i became so depressed.
i felt so insecure.
i have no one to talk to when i reach home.
2011
i will rmmbr this year as i the year i cried the most.
No one knows i cried.
NO ONE.
well, until today.
there was this week where i cried evry single fucking day.
and cut myself.
i dont even know why i do that.
I'm insecure of myself.
no matter how i skipped recess, i'll still be this fat ugly girl.
But, no one realize.
i'm such a good liar.
no one realize how much cuts i've made
that day.
well, now it is healed.
a girl realized, she ask me why,
i lied, i said it was rashes.
i did look like rashes thou.
im good at this huh?
THOSE WHO READ THIS, IM NOT SAYIN IT FOR SYMPATHY
I DONT WANT TO SOUND PATHETIC
BUT, I WANNA SHOW HOW U GUYS CHANGED MY LIFE.
IM THANKFUL FOR U GUYS. IM THANKFUL FOR MY MUM.
AND WHAT IS WRITTEN HERE, MEANT TO STAY HERE.
NO ONE ELSE SHOULD KNOW.
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