I have so many of her pics, its time to use it, LOVE♥

SashaFierce is an empowered diva. 

BUT,

Beyonce Knowles is a feminine, beautiful,

 humble polite Lady♥ 

I LOOOVE YOU

its like u changed ur self in a split second once u get out of the stage

i mean like I adore her.

big time :*

she's so humble..

she's great. she can keep her best of both world

she's so lovely and delicate with her husband, mum,

 niece, sisters, friends.

she's always smiling.

she doesnt have to be all time trashy like Gaga :)

she is a true performance. 

THAT is POWER ♥ 

sup? im plain today. no feelings attached. classic.

i dont care if u r smart, but u have the narrowest mind i could've ever walked by.

it was a bad day

What can you do when your good isn't good enough

And all that you touch tumbles down'

Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things

I just want to fix it somehow

But how many times will it take

Oh how many times will it take for me

To get it right

it wasn't my best days, and as i lie down watching this drama, and girl sang this.

the tears came gushing down.

by the 2nd chorus i had catch the lines.

this is my life soundtrack.

this is so true that i am so sad.

i realized. my life i s not as happy as it seems.

im not sad at school. 

but the slightest thing can make me felt so small. 

teachers scoldings can make me cry.

friends did not greet me first, i'll loose my mood.

I am insecure.

i have to admit this.

i can't tell more lies.

at school, if nothing has gone wrong, 

i will be as happy as fuck.

the brightest smile among all.

but, when i reached home, 

I'm all by myself. 

i became so depressed.

i felt so insecure.

i have no one to talk to when i reach home.

2011

i will rmmbr this year as i the year i cried the most.

No one knows i cried.

NO ONE.

well, until today.

there was this week where i cried evry single fucking day.

and cut myself. 

i dont even know why i do that.

I'm insecure of myself.

no matter how i skipped recess, i'll still be this fat ugly girl.

But, no one realize. 

i'm such a good liar.

no one realize how much cuts i've made 

that day.

well, now it is healed.

a girl realized, she ask me why,

i lied, i said it was rashes.

i did look like rashes thou.

im good at this huh?

THOSE WHO READ THIS, IM NOT SAYIN IT FOR SYMPATHY 

I DONT WANT TO SOUND PATHETIC

BUT, I WANNA SHOW HOW U GUYS CHANGED MY LIFE.

IM THANKFUL FOR U GUYS. IM THANKFUL FOR MY MUM.

AND WHAT IS WRITTEN HERE, MEANT TO STAY HERE.

NO ONE ELSE SHOULD KNOW.

a simple complication, miscommunication

Oh my gosh.
what have i done this time?
i don't really mean what i said altough there is some truth there.
i mean like idk if i really mean it or what.
gosh. all this feeling thinggy is complicated.
i mean like u can't decide or choose ur feelings.

feelings are just feelings.

i really dont know.

but what i know is, after i said that i felt very bad.
i mean like REALLY bad.
the worst feeling EVER.

maybe im just paranoid. 

Maybe u don't take it seriously.

or ure just scaring the fuck out of me.

but if u do, i'm sorry. 

i can't take back what i've said and i don't feel like want to take it back..

i'm sorry.

im tired.

i have no idea why oh why i eat like a dragon and sleeps like a cow.
exams coming and all i do is tumblin or homeworks. come on im a NORMAL teenager not a nerd. u dont expect me to stay till 3 or 4 to study rite?

and i had no idea why i put that rabbit there...

suprisingly..

hey, when i didnt do it u scolded me because u asked me to try..

and whne i did it and i get it right u accused me of copying from friends?

what kind of teacher are you?

havent you met student like me before?
i just can't say it in the right method as in ur fucking method.

i have my own fucking way of doing it. and the working will look the same and the answer is the same fucking thing!

it's just that i processed differently in my mind.or can i say i just use difrent way to memorize the step? because i learned the basic myself u bloody fool.

i hate you. 

you make me do things i hate the most in this world.

CRY.

and i hate it when anger turns into tears.

and should i hate myself for finally doing things right? FML

if you see my book u will notice no diffrences. ok yeah, maybe my book is like bruised all over.

coz i've been rubbing and doing it again. 

BUT THE POINT IS I'VE TRIED SUCCESFULLY. AND ON THAT PIECE OF PAPER, U WILL SPOT NO WEIRD THINGS. it's just my brain is diffrent than yours. 

in this world, i own no justice or even a right to be respected and trusted. then what's the point of trying? 

i can't go on. tears are falling.

i use to hate pn.Tan, but i think u are worse.